Before this year started, I really sucked at writing. Name any style of writing and I’ll most likely say that I sucked. But I think this has all changed after being in Mr.Sutherlands class. I used to believe that all writing should be planned, but now I see that sometimes you need to write from the soul. If you write copying sentence starters off a page and don’t involve any feelings at all, your writing gets boring. No ones going to want to read it. Now I write what I remember the feeling I had towards something or the feelings I feel currently.
My favorite blog post is the one about when my brother left to Arizona.
I wrote about him because I was feeling down at the moment and I found blogging this would bring me some sort of relief. It’s my favorite because I didn’t take time to plan or think about what was going on there. I just let my fingers type and do all the talking. I missed my brother so much, I wasn’t used to him not being around. With him gone, I didn’t have anyone to talk to about all my problems, or laugh with when I was bored or down. I got so used to him that sometimes I would ignore him and take advantage of him being at my house. When he left to Arizona I realized that without him at home and in my life, I would be incomplete. Hopefully, I’ll work up the courage to show him this post, but he’ll probably call me a weenie. I think he’s going to call me a weenie because he told me numerous times that he was going to come back home, but not permanently. He would only visit in the summer and on holidays.My mom was also very sad and past her worries and concerns on to me. She would talk about how he might get arrested, he needs to watch out, he might get shot, or he might get into drugs. She cried all night which got me real upset. My little brother stayed talking about how he missed him and its not as fun as when my brother was at home. Everyone noticed how different the house was and how much we missed him.
I love having a blog because it gets me thinking in different ways both positive and negative. Before I had a blog, I always thought that my point of view was right and everyone elses was incorrect. Before I hated reading other peoples blogs because sometimes the things they thought or said pist me off. But now I can go through everything with an open mind and leave with positive thoughts. I love reading the different ideas people have to say. I think blogging has made me a better person and way more respectful.These transformations in me and in my writing began with a small blog discussion I had with another peer and as I read through others post. Eventhough at the beginning I wasn’t and it took me a while to get there, I still got there. I remember when I blogged about Justin Bieber and some people went against what I said and said a bunch of mean things I really disagreed with. I argued with one of my peers. Now that I look at it, I made a mistake because it was simply just her opinion. There is nothing wrong with voicing your opinion. At the moment I thought it was wrong because I was completely hooked on Justin Bieber and was willing to defend him but it wasn’t worth it because she did nothing wrong, I can’t change someones opinion. But I also saw that although the tone in the post seemed very angry filled and rude, but that wasn’t correct of me to just take it the way I read it and start being rude myself. I understand now that the way people think their writing may seem different to the people reading it. You may write something funny and happy but another person might take it offensive and pessimistic. There are a lot of ways that the true feelings of writings can be confused. They changed my mind about arguing and being impulsive by telling me what they actually meant in their post and redirecting me to read it with open eyes. One example of that was,”As for the claim that I specifically don't like Beiber, may I direct you to this statement of mine?I don't have an opinion on Justin Beiber...but I'm not a "hater" either. I find it extremely interesting that there is no middle ground, only the fans and the "haters".”
As you can see, I feel like I’ve grown and learned a lot this year. Hopefully next year, I will do way more post that I’ll feel real proud of. I love Mr.Sutherland’s way of teaching and the genuine concern he shows for us. He is a great teacher and I appreciate all he has done for us this year. I also appreciate my peers for providing great blogs and truly expressing their feelings in their writing. I love this year and feel proud to know that I’m leaving with a lot of knowledge.
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Identical
Karen Chavez :)
Well a character that really interested me was Reanne. She is so twisted and messed up in the head. She loves messing with faith and pushing her luck around tough situations. She has nasty and crazy thoughts about guys... She is also a tough chick who will persuade people to do as she says and she isn't afraid to defend herself.
Reanne is like that for a reason. She yearns for her mother's and father's affection. She is jelous of her sister Kaeleigh because her father pays attention to her more, but not in a good way. Even though she has every single material thing necessary and she's spoiled she lives a difficult life. Her dad always gets drunk and does drug abuse. Her mom has no feelings towards them after they had a car accident. Reanne had to witness her sister getting raped and sexually molested ever since they were 9 . Her dad doesn't allow them to eat because she doesn't want them to hit double digit numbers on their jeans. Since she hasn't received much love then she does anything to feel that warmth once again. She does drugs and sometimes sneaks her dad's drugs and alcohol for herself. She is a true bad ass! She is into numerous amount of men and isn't satisfied with just one. She doesn't really believe in love. She has also have had a lot of intercourse with men that aren't good with her. She's a little psycho because she gets real mad and jelous when her dad rapes her sister she wishes it was her instead of Kaelaigh.
She might be crazy or whatever but shes what makes this book so BOMB!!!!!!
This time I'll be talking about her other side ("sister") you'll know what I mean as soon as you read the book.
Well Kaeleigh is the total opposite of Reanne. She is a good girl. She listens to everything her father instructs her because she doesn't want to take any risk getting in trouble.
"He's there,okay daring me not to admit the lie. I know better.Yes, that's right."pg160
This quote shows how her father easily intimidates Kaeleigh and how she knows what her father is capable of doing. She always comes home on time and doesn't dare have a boyfriend or interact with a guy in any form. She always eats healthy so her father won't be disappointed in her. She went to the hospital once because she took a pill overdose and her father was trying to make her shake it off, he told her she's okay and shouldn't complain. Another time he did something mean was when she puked and cut herself he said go clean it up your fine. Kaeleigh was raped by her father and is still being raped that's why she's afraid of men.
As you can see, these characters are so great that when you read this book you can’t let go of it.
Identical
The book Identical by Ellen Hopkins is really intense and hooks the reader. I am currently reading another book of hers and I just love her style of writing ! The way she describes her characters is so vivid and clear. This book made me feel like I was actually present on what and where these things happened. This book made me feel shocked,disgusted,and a whole bunch of other feelings. Her description and story telling of the characters was just so great,I just had to write and compare them.Well a character that really interested me was Reanne. She is so twisted and messed up in the head. She loves messing with faith and pushing her luck around tough situations. She has nasty and crazy thoughts about guys... She is also a tough chick who will persuade people to do as she says and she isn't afraid to defend herself.
Reanne is like that for a reason. She yearns for her mother's and father's affection. She is jelous of her sister Kaeleigh because her father pays attention to her more, but not in a good way. Even though she has every single material thing necessary and she's spoiled she lives a difficult life. Her dad always gets drunk and does drug abuse. Her mom has no feelings towards them after they had a car accident. Reanne had to witness her sister getting raped and sexually molested ever since they were 9 . Her dad doesn't allow them to eat because she doesn't want them to hit double digit numbers on their jeans. Since she hasn't received much love then she does anything to feel that warmth once again. She does drugs and sometimes sneaks her dad's drugs and alcohol for herself. She is a true bad ass! She is into numerous amount of men and isn't satisfied with just one. She doesn't really believe in love. She has also have had a lot of intercourse with men that aren't good with her. She's a little psycho because she gets real mad and jelous when her dad rapes her sister she wishes it was her instead of Kaelaigh.
She might be crazy or whatever but shes what makes this book so BOMB!!!!!!
This time I'll be talking about her other side ("sister") you'll know what I mean as soon as you read the book.
Well Kaeleigh is the total opposite of Reanne. She is a good girl. She listens to everything her father instructs her because she doesn't want to take any risk getting in trouble.
"He's there,okay daring me not to admit the lie. I know better.Yes, that's right."pg160
This quote shows how her father easily intimidates Kaeleigh and how she knows what her father is capable of doing. She always comes home on time and doesn't dare have a boyfriend or interact with a guy in any form. She always eats healthy so her father won't be disappointed in her. She went to the hospital once because she took a pill overdose and her father was trying to make her shake it off, he told her she's okay and shouldn't complain. Another time he did something mean was when she puked and cut herself he said go clean it up your fine. Kaeleigh was raped by her father and is still being raped that's why she's afraid of men.
As you can see, these characters are so great that when you read this book you can’t let go of it.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Identical NUMBER 2
8. Ok well I just recently finished reading this book and the ending is just plain insane. On my previous post, I wrote about crazy,bad ass Reanne. But this time I'll be talking about her other side ("sister") you'll know what I mean as soon as you read the book.
Well Kaeleigh is the total opposite of Reanne. She is a good girl. She listens to everything her father instructs her because she doesn't want to take any risk getting in trouble.
Well Kaeleigh is the total opposite of Reanne. She is a good girl. She listens to everything her father instructs her because she doesn't want to take any risk getting in trouble.
"He's there,okay daring me not to admit the lie. I know better.Yes, that's right."pg160This quote shows how her father easily intimidates Kaeleigh and how she knows what her father is capable of doing. She always comes home on time and doesn't dare have a boyfriend or interact with a guy in any form. She always eats healthy so her father won't be disappointed in her. She went to the hospital once because she took a pill overdose and her father was trying to make her shake it off, he told her she's okay and shouldn't complain. Another time he did something mean was when she puked and cut herself he said go clean it up your fine. Kaeleigh was raped by her father and is still being raped that's why she's afraid of nen.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Seems like it's been 4ever since u've bin gone
Jose Duran, why did you leave me stuck at home with nobody to talk to? With nobody to laugh with? With nobody to post it with? With nobody to make my frown upside down? With no one to fight with? With nobody to kick it with the homies on 28th or 25th or 22nd? With no one to buy chips or a monster for at corner liquor store? With no one to share my pain and anger? With no one to give me there shoulder to cry on? With no one to take me to any destination I please? To motivate me to do better? With no one to annoy me at my room? With no one to feel like I need to prove them freaking haters wrong? With no one to give me a speech to just do me? With no one to give me advice? With no one to tell me to put them foos in check? With no one to dance your favorite songs? With no one to show me there new art or tagging pieces? With no one to back up when their in problems? With no one to hug when I feel regret after being mean or rude? With no one to give attitude? With no one to argue or prove wrong? With no one to give this empty slot full of love in my heart to?
When you told me you were going to Arizona, I didn't believe you. I thought it was just another one of your jokes or lies, (at the back of my mind I was kind of wishing it was).
When you packed your bags and got in the car my heart shattered into millions and billions of irreparable pieces. I wanted to just hop into your suitcase so you can take me with you but I knew that, that was impossible. You have no idea how much I'm missing you. I always run down to your room believing your still there but when I see that empty room I feel like an idiot. Because I keep tricking myself. The house isn't the same without my sunshine crackin jokes and hugging me. I've cried so many times I can't even count the number of times. Before you left you saw me cry and gave me a great big bear hug and wiped my tears away. I stared at that car driving away not thinking about how my big brother was out on his own and growing up. When I got into my room, I then reacted. Is this how it's going to feel after you leave permanently? Am I going to feel this empty? Are you going to visit? Or just completely erase me off your mind because you need to focus on your career? Females? Parties? I don't know if your feeling as sad as me but I just can't take it. I cry each night, grasping hold of every word and phrase you've said. I paint a picture in my mind of all your sad,mad,happy, depressing,panicky any feeling you have showed. I clutch hold with all my strength that pure silver coin you left for me and your black hoodie. I hope your having a blast in Arizona and that everyone loves and respects you there because you deserve that. I hope that I'll be able to bottle up all my emotions until you get back home. You don't know how much I need to talk to you! I love you although you probably won't read this I hope that you juss know that I can't live without you and I would take a bullet for you anyday and I'll chunk it with any female who doesn't treat you like prince charming. Anyways I'll be waiting for you at home with open arms and some presents! I wish you the best and hope nothing bad goes down in Arizona (you know what I mean by that though)
With Love and sadness, Your sister Karen Chavez. </3
When you told me you were going to Arizona, I didn't believe you. I thought it was just another one of your jokes or lies, (at the back of my mind I was kind of wishing it was).
When you packed your bags and got in the car my heart shattered into millions and billions of irreparable pieces. I wanted to just hop into your suitcase so you can take me with you but I knew that, that was impossible. You have no idea how much I'm missing you. I always run down to your room believing your still there but when I see that empty room I feel like an idiot. Because I keep tricking myself. The house isn't the same without my sunshine crackin jokes and hugging me. I've cried so many times I can't even count the number of times. Before you left you saw me cry and gave me a great big bear hug and wiped my tears away. I stared at that car driving away not thinking about how my big brother was out on his own and growing up. When I got into my room, I then reacted. Is this how it's going to feel after you leave permanently? Am I going to feel this empty? Are you going to visit? Or just completely erase me off your mind because you need to focus on your career? Females? Parties? I don't know if your feeling as sad as me but I just can't take it. I cry each night, grasping hold of every word and phrase you've said. I paint a picture in my mind of all your sad,mad,happy, depressing,panicky any feeling you have showed. I clutch hold with all my strength that pure silver coin you left for me and your black hoodie. I hope your having a blast in Arizona and that everyone loves and respects you there because you deserve that. I hope that I'll be able to bottle up all my emotions until you get back home. You don't know how much I need to talk to you! I love you although you probably won't read this I hope that you juss know that I can't live without you and I would take a bullet for you anyday and I'll chunk it with any female who doesn't treat you like prince charming. Anyways I'll be waiting for you at home with open arms and some presents! I wish you the best and hope nothing bad goes down in Arizona (you know what I mean by that though)
With Love and sadness, Your sister Karen Chavez. </3
Identical is the bomb diggity!!!
I chose number 8 :) !
Well a character that really interested me was Reanne. She is so twisted and messed up in the head. She loves messing with faith and pushing her luck around tough situations. She has nasty and crazy thoughts about guys... She is also a tough chick who will persuade people to do as she says and she isn't afraid to defend herself.
Reanne is like that for a reason. She yearns for her mother's and father's affection. She is jelous of her sister kaeleigh because her father pays attention to her more, but not in a good way. Eventhough she has every single material thing necessary and she's spoiled she lives a difficult life. Her dad always gets drunk and does drug abuse. Her mom has no feelings towards them after they had a car accident.Reanne had to witness her sister getting raped and sexually molested ever since they were 9 . Her dad doesn't allow them to eat because she doesn't want them to hit double digit numbers on their jeans. Since she hasn't received much love then she does anything to feel that warmth once again. Shee does drugs and sometimes sneaks her dad's drugs and alcohol for herself. She is a true badass! She is into numerous amount of men and isn't satisfied with just one. She doesn't really belive in love. She has also have had alot of intercourse with men that aren't good with her. She's a little phsycho because she gets real mad and jelous when her dad rapes her sister she wishes it was her instead of kaelaigh.
She might be crazy or whatever but shes what makes this book so BOMB!!!!!!
Well a character that really interested me was Reanne. She is so twisted and messed up in the head. She loves messing with faith and pushing her luck around tough situations. She has nasty and crazy thoughts about guys... She is also a tough chick who will persuade people to do as she says and she isn't afraid to defend herself.
Reanne is like that for a reason. She yearns for her mother's and father's affection. She is jelous of her sister kaeleigh because her father pays attention to her more, but not in a good way. Eventhough she has every single material thing necessary and she's spoiled she lives a difficult life. Her dad always gets drunk and does drug abuse. Her mom has no feelings towards them after they had a car accident.Reanne had to witness her sister getting raped and sexually molested ever since they were 9 . Her dad doesn't allow them to eat because she doesn't want them to hit double digit numbers on their jeans. Since she hasn't received much love then she does anything to feel that warmth once again. Shee does drugs and sometimes sneaks her dad's drugs and alcohol for herself. She is a true badass! She is into numerous amount of men and isn't satisfied with just one. She doesn't really belive in love. She has also have had alot of intercourse with men that aren't good with her. She's a little phsycho because she gets real mad and jelous when her dad rapes her sister she wishes it was her instead of kaelaigh.
She might be crazy or whatever but shes what makes this book so BOMB!!!!!!
Friday, April 1, 2011
My name is blah!!!!
Karen Chavez,UGH! What a plain boring name. I hate my name couldn't I have at least gotten a middle name to spice things up? My full name including all of my last names is Karen Dominguez Chavez Hernandez. That makes it a bit better, but I wouldn't write all of that on my homework or classwork daily. That would just be annoying.
I really want a creative name and I also want it to have some sentimental value behind it. But sadly I don't and never will. I'm stuck with this name for the rest of my life. I'm jelous of Rokhsor's name it's so beautifull and unique it just rolls off the tounge so smoothly. Or like Karisa, I've never heard anyone else with that gorgeous name not even on tv. Or Shannon theres not so many Shannon's in the world and the ones I've seen are so pretty. Or Ebone I love that name it's so cute and sounds all sassy.
I asked my mom why she had given me that boring name Karen(no offense to other Karen's) and she said no particular reason. I asked if she planned it, she responded with no. I was kind of shocked and questioned myself did she think of that last minute because if she did I'm going to be pist! She said that she named me off of her nurse at the moment, she didn;t know or couldn't focus on any other names and she liked how american Karen sounded. I mean I guess I should be glad that she gave me a name and that there is a story behind it, even if it's not what I expected.
I really want a creative name and I also want it to have some sentimental value behind it. But sadly I don't and never will. I'm stuck with this name for the rest of my life. I'm jelous of Rokhsor's name it's so beautifull and unique it just rolls off the tounge so smoothly. Or like Karisa, I've never heard anyone else with that gorgeous name not even on tv. Or Shannon theres not so many Shannon's in the world and the ones I've seen are so pretty. Or Ebone I love that name it's so cute and sounds all sassy.
I asked my mom why she had given me that boring name Karen(no offense to other Karen's) and she said no particular reason. I asked if she planned it, she responded with no. I was kind of shocked and questioned myself did she think of that last minute because if she did I'm going to be pist! She said that she named me off of her nurse at the moment, she didn;t know or couldn't focus on any other names and she liked how american Karen sounded. I mean I guess I should be glad that she gave me a name and that there is a story behind it, even if it's not what I expected.
Response Vignette!
I am responding to Sam Everret's and Ebone Quall's post.
As I read through these two blogs. I noticed that they both dedicated a small vignette to their urge of graduating and attending Asti. They had similar reasons for leaving their schools. One of them was the fact that they just really couldn't take some of the people. Another was not being able to be who they are without being judged.
One quote that I came across from Sam's vignette was
A quote that I got from Ebone's vignette was
This quote shows how she didn't like her 7th and 8th grade experience at all and was anxious to leave. She probably thought that asti was more of her enviroment because she knew more people there and she probably thought that the people there would be more friendly. She was completely correct because we love her and accept her through the thick and thin.
Well that's one pattern I noticed between those two vignettes. I noticed that they both wanted to be in asti and I hope that they don't regret attending here and that there mind-set about it, is still the same as before.
As I read through these two blogs. I noticed that they both dedicated a small vignette to their urge of graduating and attending Asti. They had similar reasons for leaving their schools. One of them was the fact that they just really couldn't take some of the people. Another was not being able to be who they are without being judged.
One quote that I came across from Sam's vignette was
"I was so tired of trying to blend in and be unsuccessful, it was time to do something that would set me apart."This quote tells me that at his school he couldn't truly bring out his inner Sam and show his true intellectual. He would rather fit in among his peers then excel at school I'm guessing. He was excited to join asti because he probably knew that right there, he wouldn't have to worry about being judged for acting like himself and doing his work. At asti everyone is a nerd and very tolerant and open-minded.
A quote that I got from Ebone's vignette was
"...somehow made it through hell in 7th and 8th, and got accepted into the school
of my dreams. I had done it, ASTI here I come and you best as hell get
ready for me."
This quote shows how she didn't like her 7th and 8th grade experience at all and was anxious to leave. She probably thought that asti was more of her enviroment because she knew more people there and she probably thought that the people there would be more friendly. She was completely correct because we love her and accept her through the thick and thin.
Well that's one pattern I noticed between those two vignettes. I noticed that they both wanted to be in asti and I hope that they don't regret attending here and that there mind-set about it, is still the same as before.
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